Dear
friends,
I speak to
you from the heart of Christ consciousness. I am Jeshua, but I am not solely
that one particular personality who lived on earth two thousand years ago.
Here, I represent more than that. I represent the Christ energy that lives and
vibrates in all of your hearts. The one who speaks here now thus also
represents your own energy and vibration; it is your own heart-felt longing
that is turned into words in this room we are sitting in.
Being
together like this, is not simply about delivering a lecture….it is a gathering
and celebration of the New Era. The awakening of a new consciousness seems to
be far off at times. There seems to be so much disharmony and conflict in your
world and, indeed, within yourselves as well. But yet the awakening has begun.
A new dimension of consciousness is being birthed on earth right now, and after
a long stage of preparation, it will gradually gain a foothold and spread a
wave of enlightenment across the earth. You all take part in this wave of newly
awakening consciousness, engulfing the earth right now. In many senses, you are that wave of energy.
“Surrender
and control” is a big issue within this process of spiritual awakening, both at
the individual level and at the collective level. At the political level, world leaders often
find themselves confronted with this issue. It still is very difficult to be in
charge politically and make decisions from the heart. Politics does not seem to
be ready for this yet. Nonetheless, surrendering to the wisdom of the heart is
the only way out of the great conflicts on earth right now, the only chance for
a peaceful resolution of these conflicts.
The
universal sense of connectedness and unity that is possible between people of
very different races, religions or cultures, is the foundation for world peace.
The recognition of each other as human
beings, despite the external dissimilarities, is growing among the world
population, and it is stimulated by your modern information technology, which
greatly diminishes distances in time and space. At the same time, the growth towards
mutual understanding is threatened by old, fear-based notions of “us” and
“them”. Thinking in terms of good and bad, right and wrong, “us” and “them”,
perpetuates age old hostilities and fuels a great deal of emotional turmoil. These
divisive notions are still used by politicians to sustain their power.
However,
what ultimately determines reality at the political level is you, the individual. Politics mirror the
consciousness of the majority of individuals together. It is by the awareness
of many independent individuals together that a new level of consciousness
comes alive. Rather than dwell on the
political level, I would now like to speak of the individual level, at which
you are all working to integrate the energy of the heart into your lives and at
which you are dealing with the issue of surrender and control.
Meanwhile I
ask you to simply feel the energy of surrender, as it is gathered here today
and flowing out of your hearts. You all strongly crave for the sense of
liberation and trust that is inherent in surrender, letting go. But often, you
do not know yet how to integrate this energy into your day to day lives.
What is the
source of control in life? By control I mean: wanting to exert power over life,
forcing it to flow according to your desires, which you perceive as right and
just. Why do you mean to exert control over your life, and continually live in
tension and anxiety because of it? The source of control is fear. Fear is
deeply ingrained in the structure of your life: your upbringing, education and
society. Control mechanisms are present everywhere and are taught to you as
good habits. Apparently, you are a sensible, rational person if you want to
have control over your life and organise it accordingly.
Surrender
and unpredictability instil a sense of fear in you. Surrender you associate
with giving up, not knowing what to do, being overwhelmed by emotional turmoil
or crisis. This, however, is a very limited conception of surrender. It is a
conception born from fear, from ego based consciousness. There is a much more
positive notion of surrender, one that points at a lifestyle, a way of being, in which you live your life in trust,
without the need to control, force or manipulate it.
The ego
craves control because it is scared. The ego identifies with images that do not
come from the soul but are fed to you from the outside world. The ego is
constantly running around to preserve its self-image, be it successful
businessman, caring housewife, or able therapist. It wants to keep up this
image to have control over other people’s thoughts about you. However, there
are always moments in which the ego fails and loses. This may be the case when
you get overworked, sick or your relationship breaks down. The ego considers
such crises, which at some point force you to let go and surrender, to be
deathly blows.
The ego thus
associates surrender with crisis. The ego lives in a continual alternation of
control and crisis. Often, in moments of true crisis in your life, you are
invited to look at the hidden treasure inside of it. There is always a positive
element hiding within the crisis, which beckons you to get closer to the heart
of you. In that way, life is always moving you closer to yourself, your inner
knowing and wisdom, even if you live by the ego’s dictates. For there will
always be situations in your life that challenge you to surrender sooner or
later. Life is always offering you opportunities to choose surrender as a
lifestyle.
You know
this. You all know these moments of surrender after a crisis, precious moments
of clarity and awareness, in which you realize you are carried by the flow of
an invisible, divine breath. You realize this divine flow of life wants the
best for you, and that you can rely on it even if it does not necessarily bring
you what you expected. What you all long for is to live according to this
higher consciousness more permanently; to incorporate this way of being into
your everyday life, without having to be pushed into it by deep crisis and
despair. You all long for surrender as a lifestyle.
You are all
worn-out warriors. You have come a long way. Sometimes you feel very old and
tired within, but it is better to say that you are very tired of the old…… You
are searching for a way of being that is effortless – inspiring and yet light
and flowing. The key is that you do not empty yourself out in your
relationships, work or other goals, until you crash and crisis forces you to
surrender. Take one step further, or rather take one step back, and focus on a
lifestyle that is always marked by letting go, trust and surrender.
Surrendering means: not struggling, not resisting but going along with the flow
of life, trusting that life will offer you precisely what you need. Trust that
your needs are known and will be met. Accept what is in your life right now and
be present with it. About this way of living I wish to speak, as your longing
for it is deep and sincere. It is a spiritual longing that comes from your
soul, the divine flow within you.
Blockages on the way to surrender: three false
gods
On the one
hand, you desire to put down your masks and live openly according to the
original blueprint of your soul. You long for sincerity, honesty, love and
connectedness. On the other hand, letting down those masks is a very difficult
thing for you. You have been raised with beliefs and structures that have
become rooted in your psyches and that keep you from connecting to your own
soul. In particular, I would like to address three idols or “false gods” that you often turn towards for guidance but
which in fact take you off-center, out of the balance needed to live in
surrender to who you really are.
The first idol: God as an authority above you
The first
false god is God himself, that is to say God conceived as the lord and master
of creation. That type of God is a human construction, an image of God that has
deeply influenced your culture.
Many of you
thinkthat you have let go of this
traditional image of God. You say you do not believe anymore in a judging and
punishing God, who stands high above you and keeps a record of your successes and
failures like a school master. You say you believe in a God of Love, who
forgives you at all times and who cherishes and encourages you. However, in the
rigid and loveless way you often treat yourselves, this old God is still very
much alive! Do you not often say to yourself that you have failed, that you are
not right, that you should have progressed further, whether in the area of
relationships, work, or the spiritual. You torture yourself with ideas like: I
do not live up to God’s expectations, I am disappointing my spiritual guides or
higher Self, I have failed my mission, I am not contributing anything
meaningful to the world.
Many of you
believe, secretly so to speak, that there is a higher order that you are
supposed to answer or obey to. Whether it is a “soul mission” or a “life path”
that has been laid out for you, a spiritual hierarchy that has an “assignment”
for you, or a spiritual guide telling you what to do or where to go……in all
those cases you believe in the existence of a higher authority, a spiritual
level above you, that you had better listen to. But as soon as you believe in
an authority outside of you, who is able to offer guidelines about what you
should do in your life, we are back with the traditional God. According to this
image, there is a level of truth, at which things are fixed and determined, and
all you can do is live according to it or not. This is a false image.
Certainly,
when you are born, there are intentions in your soul for the lifetime to come.
One might call these your higher purpose for this lifetime, but it has not been
ordained by anything outside of you. It is you yourself who has chosen it and
it was born from your own desires and wishes. The things in your life that are
“predetermined”- in the sense of very likely to happen, nothing is ever fixed
completely - have been created and chosen by you. You can connect to your life
purpose or higher inspiration anytime by listening to your feelings, to the
voice of your heart, your deepest longings. I would advice you not to listen
too much to high-strung spiritual doctrines about how you should live. Listen
especially to the so-called lower part of you: powerful emotions that manifest
in your everyday life. Through these emotions, the soul is trying to reach out
to you and tell you something.
If you
would like to know what your soul wants to tell you right now, look at the
emotions that recur in your life often and absorb you the most. Look at them in
a kind but honest way. Do not accuse anyone else of your emotions, do not pay
attention to causes outside of you; see them as the result of your choices. For
instance, if you are angry and annoyed often, where does that come from? Is
there something you are lacking? What does the anger tell you? What is the
message hidden within? Is it a sense of not being recognized or valued by
others? Are you afraid to show them who you are, afraid to stand for your
truth? Do you hide your true feelings often and is it difficult for you to
clearly state your boundaries? Often, through the anger, a genuine message is
crying out to you: a longing to be who you are, to show your original soul
energy to the world. If you recognise your soul’s longing through the anger,
you are seeing your angelic self shining
through your inner child.
The angel
inside of you is the “higher self” who wants to connect with physical reality,
incarnate and shine its light upon earth reality. It is the knowing part. Your inner child is the passion of life itself:
it is desire, emotion and creativity. It is the
experiencing part. The child part in you is your “lower self”. The inner
child is a source of joy and creativity, if it lives in harmony with the angel
within. But if it breaks away from the angel’s caress and goes adrift, it is
the source of emotions running wild. Anger will turn into hatred and vengeance.
Fear will pervert into defence, neurosis and frustration. Sadness will
deteriorate into depression and bitterness. The original emotions are
pointers…messages from the experiencing part of you. It is the child that,
through these emotions, reaches out its hands to the angel inside of you. The
emotions express the pure, un-knowing
experience. They are an expression of misunderstanding. It is in the
connection to the angel that emotions can be picked up as pointers and
understood. As such, the emotions become instruments for transformation and
exploration: the “lower self” enriches and fulfils the higher self as it
provides the knowing part with felt
content. The angel in you comes to life and experiences deep joy if she is allowed to enlighten the child. And if
the higher self shines through in this way, your emotional body quiets down and
gains balance. The fruit of the flowing together of angel and child is an intuitive, inner knowing that can imbue
your life with light and effortlessness.
The higher
and lower principles in you, the angel and the child, are an organic,
meaningful whole. The notions “higher” and “lower” therefore are not really
right. It is about a joyful playing together of “knowing” and “experiencing”. It is this interplay that leads to true,
incarnated (as opposed to theoretical) wisdom.
To find
guidance about your life in the now moment, you can best address your inner
child. By giving it the attention it needs, you shower it with your higher
consciousness, the touch of the angel. To illustrate this, let’s return to the
example above in which I spoke of anger and irritation. Once you have connected
with this emotion and envisage it as a child, you can invite the child to come
to you. You can ask it what it is upset about and what it needs from you to
heal. Let the child answer you and allow it to express itself very clearly.
Imagine it talking to you in a lively way, with a distinct expression on its
face and clear body language. Perhaps it is giving you specific answers, such
as “I want you to quit your job!” or “I want to take dancing lessons”, or they
may be more general, like “I need to play and relax more” or “I can’t be nice
all the time, you know!” Take the answer seriously and live according to it as
much as possible. Maybe you cannot instantly do the things your inner child
desires. But you can start small and step by step start to realize your
longings.
If you
embrace the angry, frightened or sad child inside of you with love and
acceptance, it is touched by the angel inside of you and the result is that
your soul speaks to you. Start with the emotions, find the true longing behind
those emotions, and find a way to realize them step by step.
In the
image I am drawing of the angel and the child within, there is no place for an
authoritarian God figure. The “higher” and the “lower” complement each other in
an open, dynamically evolving relationship. The angel does not dictate anything
to the child, nor does the child have authority over the angel. It is in their
interplay that you discover what is right for you in this moment.
You will
find your life’s goals through this intimate connection between angel and
child. In this connection, you discover what really moves you. No authority
outside of you can replace this connection, or make the connection for you. A
teacher can only point to that sacred area within, where you can allow the
child inside to be cherished and inspired by the angel in you. In this area,
you find out who you are and what your passion is. General guidelines about how
to live a spiritual life are nearly always inadequate, or at least not
universal in nature. Truth is formless. Every creature has its own form, its
own way of living the Truth. That is the miracle of your unique soul essence.
Real spiritual teachers do not teach specific do’s and don’ts, such as “do not
eat meat” or “meditate two hours a day”. A real teacher knows that it is all
about you finding your own truth, in deep communion with yourself. Teachers may
indicate what has been helpful to them on their way, but they will not turn
this into a rule or dogma.
If you take
a look at the way God has been portrayed in most of your religious traditions,
this is exactly what happened there. Most of them are traditions of fear and
power abuse. The need for clear cut rules and dogma and the tendency toward
hierarchic organisations always show that fear and power are at play. The same
thing however also happens in new age spirituality. Take for instance the many
predictions and speculative theories currently circulating. If you go along
with this without consulting your own basic feelings about it, you may get
insecure and start to wonder “am I doing things right?”, “what if I miss the
boat (or spacecraft…) in 2012?” or “is the state of my chakras pure enough to
enter 5th dimension?” This
type of questions is certainly not helpful to your inner growth. I ask you:
turn towards yourself. Do not focus on the movement of the planets and stars,
the climate changes, or the judgement of an “ascended master” to determine your
level of self realisation. You are the center of your universe, the standard
and touch stone of your world. There is no God outside of you who knows better
or who determines things for you. Not only does the God you formerly projected
outside of you, reside in you, this
God is not all-knowing either. The divine principle in you and all of creation
is a playful force, growing and evolving in open and unpredictable ways.
In this
image, the “lower” has an indubitable reason for existence: it is the fuel for
growth and fulfilment. Light and dark have their own role to play and it is in
the acceptance of both, that you get enlightened. Reaching out for the light in
a one sided way, ignoring or fighting the dark, which some spiritual groups
aspire, creates imbalance and a subtle resistance to (and contempt for) life on
earth.
Doing
things wrong, making mistakes, is all right and it may even bring you greater
growth than trying to avoid mistakes. In
the “bad things” the seed of light is dormant. Only by experiencing the bad
from within, can you experience the good as beautiful, pure and true. You
cannot learn “from without”. You, God inside of you, has plunged into the deep
(into material reality) to become knowing
through experience, not to apply knowledge to experience. In that sense,
not many things are non-spiritual. All experience is sacred and meaningful. Do
not let yourself be guided by outside rules, dictating what is healthy, right
and spiritual for you to do. The touch stone is your own heart: if it feels
right for you, then it is okay. Let go of anything else.
The second idol: the standards and ideals of
society
Another
false god which estranges you from your original soul energy is “society”: the
standards and values which control your social world and are passed on to you
through your upbringing, education and job environment. Many of society’s
ideals are rooted in fear, in the need to control and structure life so that it
becomes a neatly arranged playground. Many rules of behaviour are not so much
inspired by what people truly feel and experience, but on what it looks like from
the outside.
Trying to
live up to such external standards of conduct can put a great pressure on you.
Think of the fear of “not fitting in”, not having accomplished enough, not
being beautiful enough, having no relationship, etcetera. By comparing yourself
to unreal images of success and happiness, your creative energy gets stuck and
you do not feel at home in this world anymore.
Because of
all these do’s and don’ts, which have become like a second skin, you hardly
dare to explore your original creativity. You are afraid to step outside the
beaten track. But it is exactly this original soul energy, the energy which
wants to flow uniquely from you, that is so welcome on earth! It is this part
of you that is meant to bring about the transformation of consciousness on
earth right now.
Connecting
to your creative impulses and expressing them in your own unique way often
demands that you deviate from society’s aims and ideals. It may be the case
that your natural rhythm of exploring yourself and then expressing who you are
on the material level, does not fit in with society’s schedule of how and when
to achieve certain things in life. You may first go through a long process of
getting to know yourself deeply, not achieving or producing anything on the
outer level. While this may seem ineffective or unsuccessful to people, you may
be working very hard on the inner level, discovering a lot of valuable things
about yourself. Take your time to discover who you are, where your natural
energy leads you, and to integrate it into your emotional and physical being.
Do not pay attention to external success. Focus on what feels good and right to
you, what makes you feel relaxed and inspired. If you find that way of living,
and experience peace and quiet within, you will most easily get in touch with
your original soul energy.
There is
much fear in people about what society dictates and expects from them. The
strange thing is that “society” as such does not even exist. What we have is a
lot of people together, each with their own sincere longings and their deep-seated fears. Everyone
longs to be free in the deepest sense of the word: to simply be who they are
without fear of being judged by “the others”. Think again therefore, whenever
you are paying a lot of attention to what others think of you. You are in fact
becoming the others’ worst enemy too, since by abiding to their rules and
fearing their judgment, you keep false ideals alive and suffocate the both of
you even stronger. You become “society” to someone else.
Especially
you, who are the pioneers of the New Era, can be an example to people who are
caught in fear. You are that example when you truly stand by yourself, listen
closely to your feelings, live accordingly and let go of outside judgments.
These judgments are born from fear, not love, and they are often based on old
rules and codes that no one remembers the true origin of. These old standards, which
bear no connection to the human heart anymore, wait to be transformed from
within, by people who dare to open up new vistas. Society waits for you; it waits for inspired ideals and standards that help
people connect to their hearts and their true desires. You contribute to the
collective transformation of consciousness by being an example of love instead
of a follower of fear.
Dare to
invite in the playful, childlike part of you. Get in touch with your inner
child often: it knows very well what it wants. Often you can hardly sense what
your heart truly longs for and you feel like you have lost your passion. This is
because you do not let the inner child play, fantasize and dream anymore. When
you measure yourself to external codes (what is appropriate for my age, gender,
social background) you limit yourself and you do not allow the child, the
dreamer and visionary, to take you outside of those limits and connect you to
your “inner code”.
You were
all born with an inspiration, a desire to manifest something on earth, both for
yourself and for others (“society”). You have not come here to live in an ivory
tower. You are part of collective consciousness on earth and you have come here
to be a leader and inspirer of change. That
will make you happy and fulfilled. By connecting to your inner child, and once
again feel the magic of that original passion, illusory limits and boundaries
will be lifted and you will find your way in life in a much easier and lighter
way. The more you set yourself free from the false gods that keep you small and
fearful, the more you live from a sense of freedom and surrender to the heart,
and the more the universe will support you and provide you with the means
necessary to bring your passion to fruition.
The third idol: pitying others and going
along with their suffering
There is one
other false god which I would like to mention and which perhaps preoccupies you
the most in everyday life. It is pitying your fellows, sharing the burden with
your dear ones by suffering along with them. Now, you may ask: how can that be
an idol? Am I not supposed to connect with others, especially my loved ones,
and help them if I can? What I am talking about is a tendency of yours to
connect so deeply with people around you, that you are drawn into their pain,
their problems and negative emotions and lose touch with your own core and
inner peace. This kind of pity and co-suffering is not your duty, it is not
helpful to the other person and it is not right from a spiritual standpoint.
Much of
what you call “high sensitivity” is being so open to other people’s energy that
it wipes away your own. Your empathy (i.e. the ability to feel other people’s moods
and emotions) is in that case insufficiently balanced by the insight that the
negative energies in that person belong to them and not to you. You are not
realizing clearly enough that this negativity plays a viable role in the other
person’s life and that you may enlighten them through your compassion and
understanding, but that it does not serve anyone’s purpose if you suffer along
with them.
Of course
you would love to see your dear ones lead happy and fulfilling lives (whether
it be spouse, child, parent or friend). You wish they would feel better and
that their problems would be solved. Always remember though that the problems
they have are their own creations. Relationship problems, money issues, health
problems, psychological disorders….they all mirror deep-seated inner conflicts
within the soul. Somewhere deep down people want
to experience these problems, in order to get clear about something. It may
seem that they are victims, especially when they are running around in circles over
and over again. But often that means they still want to experience some aspect
of that problem more thoroughly and that they are not open yet to your help. If
you try to help them anyway, you will easily become pushy and controlling and
you will exhaust your own energy sources. You then give up on surrender as a
lifestyle.
By giving
too much or inappropriately, you waste energy and you chain yourself
emotionally to the one you are helping. This makes you dependent on the other
person for your sense of well-being. Your emotional energies get mixed up and
this is one of the major causes for loss of strength, vitality and
self-awareness. Few things can break down your energy so easily as a persistent
sense of duty, guilt and responsibility for someone else.
In such a “helping
relationship” power issues often arise, even if no one intended this. By giving
too much or inappropriately, the helper in fact tries to cover up an inner
emptiness that goes unnoticed if one is preoccupied with someone else. Helping
someone else may make you feel stronger and more self-assured. The one who gets
all this attention from you, experiences this as nice and comfortable, and they
soon notice they can influence you with their moods and emotions. They know
that if things get worse for them, they get more attention from you (because
you want them to get well so badly). The “sufferer” therefore senses that they
have power over you and that it pays off to remain in the victim role. In such
a relationship, a strong energy exchange is taking place, and it will drain the
both of you, because it is not in alignment with what your souls really want.
There is no spiritual truth in the way you are reducing each other to very
limiting roles. The helper will eventually get frustrated because the sufferer
will not progress enough: it is not in their interest to change, for they have invested
in the victim role. And the sufferer gets even more stuck in their victim role;
they dig themselves deeper into it, which may completely paralyse them. Both
will get angry and blame one another.
You easily
sympathize with and feel sorry for the people around you. Especially
lightworker souls, who have a deep impulse to spread light and awareness on
earth, are very sensitive to the suffering of others. It is hard for you to see
suffering on a global scale, for instance in regions in the world devastated by
poverty or war, or the destruction and pollution of the environment. But when
it comes to suffering that is close to you, in your personal environment, you
are affected most profoundly. And it is especially here that you are challenged
to take back your power.
It is
important to realize that you are not helping someone by making yourself
smaller. You often think that if you absorb and swallow part of the other
person’s emotions, you connect deeper to them and therefore help them. It is like
you are sharing the burden. But by taking in the other one’s troubles, you only
doublethe burden. The shadow
deepens. By going along with the other person’s suffering, your power gets
fragmentised and shattered by the negativity in them. You will think you are not
entitled to be happy, peaceful and satisfied yourself, while they are
suffering. This is a grave mistake. In actuality, the opposite is true.
To be truly
helpful to someone means that you put your energy at the service of the solution of the problem, not of the
problem itself. To do so you need to make yourself bigger rather than smaller.
The more self-consciousness and independence you radiate, the more you
represent the “energy of the solution” and the more you can mean for someone
else without exhausting yourself. If you are going to suffer with them, you are really only affirming
the problem. If you stay centered and calm, not resonating with the heavy
emotions of the other, you open up
another angle, another way of looking at the problem. Precisely by not resonating with the energy of the
problem, you shed new light on it.
True
spiritual guidance never involves solving someone else’s problem. Rather, it
means to be a beacon of light and awareness to them, which mirrors their
problems back to them in a way that enables them to take another look at it. It
enables them to see meaning and value in the problem; it returns to them a
sense of free will and responsibility. Something inside of you touches their
heart and inspires them: it is the energy of love. It is the energy of
acceptance. In this way, you offer the “energy of the solution” to them, not by
doing anything for them, but by being it. That
is lightwork: being your natural self, having peace with yourself and radiating
that peace to others. It is not about carrying other people’s burdens or
finding solutions to their problems. It is about carrying the energy of the
solution in your own being and openly sharing it with others. That is the core
of your mission on earth, the core of what it means to bring light.
Being true
to yourself, taking good care of yourself and listening to what your intuition
tells you is a prerequisite to anchor the frequency of love to earth. This is
what your soul wants for you. Anytime you let others run away with your energy,
or give too much of yourself out of fear or a need to control, a part of your
light gets shattered and you will need to recuperate and emotionally heal
yourself to regain your natural balance and vitality. Notice how this happens
in your everyday life. If you are worrying about other people, about how they
perceive you or how you should help them, and your thoughts are going in
circles, and the same emotions repeat themselves, you are stuck in the rut of
fear and control. Often, you tend to give away your energy because you think
you are making things better, helping people out or solving a problem. But pay
attention: does your contribution really serve the solution of the problem or
does it affirm and thereby perpetuate the problem. Ask yourself whether you
aren’t really serving an idol, instead of your own inner light.
Trying to control
things often seems right and sensible, but often it is just fear that forces
you to. You frequently feel tired and exhausted from all your exertions in different
areas of your life, but often you stick to it and feel that you are obliged to
put even more energy into it. You think you owe it to someone, to some
organisation, to society or even to God. But anytime you feel emotionally
exhausted, pushing it too far, it is really time to let go and find some quiet
space for yourself. It is time to let go of the world and turn within. Cutting
the cords for a while and reconnecting to your inner child is of great
importance to remain centered and balanced. By connecting to the child, you
also awaken the angelic you, the keeper of the child. You connect to your
“lower self” and “higher self” and by feeling them inside, and listening to
them carefully, you start to sense how they can play together joyfully in your
present. It becomes clear what things you need to do or pursue to become
centered and peaceful again.
Finding and following your passion
Everyone is
born with a passion. Imagine that passion to be a beautiful red rose. Imagine
that, just before you are born, you are standing at the edge of heaven, holding
this exquisite red rose in your hand. Though you may hesitate to take the leap
into the earth realm, even wondering gloomily whether you are really up to it,
you sense a fire deep within, a passion, which presents itself to you as the
red rose. Now imagine that you take the leap, you incarnate, and now you carry
the rose within, in your belly and heart. Let the energy of the rose come to
you now. Allow your original passion, your inspiration to present itself to you
in this moment. Take a look at the rose, what does it look like now? Take the
first image that springs to your mind. Does the rose look a bit sad and worn
out, or does it radiate vibrantly? Do you see a rose bud or a blooming flower?
Does it need anything from you in this moment? Perhaps more water or sunlight,
or some more love and attention, or does it want to be removed to another spot,
to more nurturing surroundings? Imagine that you give it exactly what it needs,
and feel how this affects you on the inner level.
Red is the
color of the earth and of the base or root chakra. Red is the color of passion.
You are often afraid of your own passion. You are afraid to let this original
flow express itself openly in your lives, because it goes against what society
or tradition considers proper, right and sane. However, in each one of you
there is an original passion and inspiration that is the very source of your
existence here and now. You cannot really be fulfilled and inspired, until you
allow that energy to run through your life and guide it. The essence of
surrender as a lifestyle is that you surrender to yourself, to your soul’s passion, the inspiration that cradled
your current lifetime.
There are a
few ways in which you can recognize whether you are connected to your soul’s
passion.
1. Feeling
inspiration – wherever it flows, that’s
where you need to be
Surrender as a lifestyle means that you let yourself be guided by what truly
inspires you. Surrender is not a passive energy. By surrendering to what really
motivates and inspires you, you open the gate to a lively and active flow of
energy within. To discover that flow for yourself, you need to find out with
what kind of activities your energy naturally flows. What things make you feel
happy and peaceful? In what kind of occupation or pursuit do you feel that
things move effortlessly and gracefully? What is the essence of these things or
activities? Feel the essence of it – and know that there may be a variety of
ways for this essence to take shape and form.
2. Being
true to your own nature - what you do naturally, is what you are good
at
To
recognize your passion you need to realize that it is always something that is
very natural to you. It is something, an activity or occupation or expression form,
that you are drawn to, feel interested in and enjoy pursuing. It is something
close and natural to you, almost self evident from your perspective. To bring
your natural gift to fruition, you may have to learn some skills or pursue some
formal education, but it will be relatively easy and joyful for you to do so.
Your passion is something that your abilities and talents are attuned to; it
involves activities that you are good at from the start.
3.
Maintaining clear boundaries and daring to say “no” – take yourself seriously
You are in
the flow of surrender to yourself if you take yourself seriously enough to say
no to things or people that inhibit or cut off that flow. You can only follow
your passion if you dare to say no to what does not fit or feel right to you.
Surrendering to yourself, your unique inspiration, entails being precocious and
stubborn sometimes, standing apart and trusting the messages of your heart even
if people say you are silly and foolish. It is about loyalty to yourself. Dare
to be grand, dare to make a difference! There is really no alternative, you
know. The alternative is that your natural flow of inspiration gets stuck and
dries up and you start to feel frustrated, empty, angry and unfulfilled. If you
do not choose for yourself, you choose against yourself. The energy of the
rose, your passion, withdraws and this creates psychological problems such as
loneliness, estrangement and eventually depression. Therefore, dare to say no,
dare to take up space with clear boundaries. Do not fear to be “egotistical”
according to the standards of false gods.
4. Patience
and rhythm – do it step by step
If you are
connected to the energy of your soul, your inspiration, it will clear a path
for you in your everyday life. Opportunities (in the form or people or
situations you encounter) will come to you in a pace and rhythm that suits you.
If you want to be attuned to that flow of manifestation, stay in the present
and take it step by step. Try to not run ahead of all the things that need to
happen to realise your dreams and passion. Life takes care of you, you need not
take care of life. Simply feel your passion and entrust it to the hands of the
God within you. Let the angel inside keep and watch over the dreams and
longings of your inner child. Surrender and trust!
Thank you
so much for being here today. It is a great pleasure to be with you and
remember that the I who is saying this also very much represents your own
energy. It is your own energy that beckons and invites you: dare to live, dare
to be who you are!
