The Gate by Mary Magdalene
July 26, 2012
by Pamela Kribbe
http://jeshua.net/
Pamela channels Mary Magdalene
Dear friends, I am Mary Magdalene. You know me, my figure and face
have become part of your history, and thereby have become distorted and
marred. But you know my origin, because we live from the same source –
the space within the heart, the Home of the soul.
You have been moved by the same desire that possessed me during my
life on Earth. A longing, a desire for truth, for what is real, for the
essence. A desire to live from your soul, from inspiration, from your
core – that is what matters for you.
To live in this way can hurt. It brings you to the darkest parts in
yourself, because to live from your inner core means that everything
must be seen. The Light needs to shine on everything, so you can become
one and complete unto yourself. Many people are engaged in a struggle
with themselves, and this is painful to see.
People often live by images, pictures, and idealized sets of rules of
how to be a successful human being who is recognized and respected by
the world. Then before you know it, you are carried away by the opinions
and demands of the mainstream of society. You feel you need to adjust
to their way of thinking, so you can appear attractive and good in the
eyes of the world.
This takes you away from your inner core, and in this way, you
disconnect from yourself. But still there is a voice that says: “go
inside, discover who you are”. In that open space of no judgment, you can discover who you are: the light and the dark parts, and all you have been through: your feelings, emotions, and reactions.
To love yourself is to allow that open space within yourself, and to
be with yourself and observe what is there. Yet again comes that voice
from the outside, all too often the voice of fear, that says: “be good,
be obedient, and adjust to the norm; do not appear different or strange
in the eyes of other people”, and you again lose the inner dialogue with
yourself and that open space.
You force yourself into shackles; you judge according to the
standards of the outside world, society, and by doing so you hurt
yourself. So you are pulled back and forth between the call of the
world, which so often is the voice of fear, and the cry of the
soul, which would lead you inward, to the core of who you are. And how
can you deal with that battle, that tug-of-war between inside and
outside, between the core and the external?
Listen to the voice of your heart. Choose for yourself; choose the way you want to go in this life. Decide to do it with all your strength, unconditionally!
Take the plunge into the deep, where real love prevails. But know in
that deep space there is no bottom, and it can feel like a leap into the
abyss, into the void. You will no longer be supported by the approval,
compliments, and recognition of others; you will stand alone.
Feel, for awhile, the immense space in the center of your heart,
where there is no judgment, and no idealized images of where you should
go. Only Being is present there, pure Being. Can you stand that much
freedom, or would you prefer to stay on the leash of norms and values
provided by others? Can you take that dive into the depths? Can you truly live?
Life challenges you to take a leap into the unknown, which is scary.
However, to restrict yourself to the narrow path of the known, and not
live fully, is worse. You then become a slave to impulses from outside
yourself, and you lose “you” and no longer feel happy. Finding true
satisfaction in life can come only from going with the current of your
heart.
Your heartbeat, which is unique in the universe, alone knows the
road. And sometimes, if you get lost, there needs to be a dark time, to
bring you back to yourself, to help you remember who you are in your
deepest core. All outer certainties fall away, and insofar as you were
living according to exterior standards and ideals, you have the feeling
that everything is lost, that you have fallen into a deep, black hole –
and this feels awful! It is called “The Dark Night of the Soul”, yet it
is but a passage. You are being taken to a Gate, one that opens to
something beyond, something greater; a vista that your usual sight,
conditioned by fears and old ideas, cannot envision.
Imagine you are in a dark tunnel. You cannot even see the walls of
this tunnel, and you feel surrounded by nothingness. There is nothing
wrong with nothingness. In its essence, nothingness is neither bad nor
evil; it is absolute openness without any preconceptions or expectations
on which to rely. Yet nothingness evokes fear in you, as if it will
destroy you. What nothingness does destroy are old identities which you
thought were part of you. But know that who you really are
cannot be destroyed, cannot disappear. It is eternal, and as limitless
as the space in your heart of which I spoke earlier. That space is there
– always. Imagine that you accept nothingness and the lack of
certainties, and at the same time, you feel your strength and
independence. You then are not bound to this world; you are free in the
depths of your being!
Continue to imagine you are going through that dark tunnel and
suddenly a Gate appears in front of you. Look at what that image does
for you: are you afraid of the Gate, or do you want to go through it?
Are the doors heavy and closed, or is one door ajar and is there Light
that shines through from the other side? Just take it in; you do not
have to do anything.
Imagine now that you stand before that Gate and put your hand against
it. Allow the energy of the Gate to flow through you. The Gate is the
threshold beyond which lies the new, that which your soul wants to show
you – when you are ready to see it. By placing your hand on the Gate,
you become acquainted with the new, and with what wants to flow into
your life – at a rhythm that suits you. See if you can receive it; the
energy of the new, the energy of Home and of your soul.
Allow it to flow through your hand and into and throughout your
entire body, in a way that feels good – not too little and not too much.
The energy flows around and through your head, your shoulders, and your
heart; and goes even deeper: into your stomach, your pelvis, your
tailbone, and through your legs to your feet.
And be aware, if you are in The Dark Night of the Soul, there is
something new awaiting you beyond the Gate, although it still cannot be
seen with the eyes you have now. With new eyes, you will see that
reality on the other side of the gate, and you will develop these new
eyes by letting go of the old way of life; when you grasp no more onto
certainties and survival patterns to which you clung before.
How do you recognize when you are ready to let go of the old? Often
it is through feelings of discontent, anger, dissatisfaction, or despair
and hopelessness, which indicate that you no longer want things to be
the way they have been. You could then be thinking: “I don’t want to be
here anymore; I don’t want to live on Earth”, but actually what you are
saying is: “I no longer want the old way; I don’t want things as they
have been”.
However, your mind, formed as it is by the past, may not have yet imagined that there are
other ways, and therefore The Dark Night of the Soul becomes desperate
and intense. As the old falls away, but the new has not yet arrived,
being on that borderline and in that dark tunnel forces you to choose.
Either you continue to follow the voice of your heart and remain
faithful to yourself, or you retreat back into the voices from outside:
that of fear, of the familiar, of the past.
So I entreat you: if you are now experiencing The Dark Night of the
Soul in your life, stay with it, keep going inward, and feel what is
there. If there is fear, uncertainty, sadness, or despair, do not judge
it; stay with it and do not retreat from it.
Your Light is stronger than all those emotions, which are not the end point, but a halting place along the way. See the Gate in the distance, which is already there! Connect with the energy of the new, by way of that Gate. And one day the doors of that Gate will open wide – see it before you.
Maybe it is too much to feel it all now, but observe it for awhile
from a distance. How will it be when that Gate opens wide, and you walk
through it? What awaits you there? What feelings does it call up in you?
You do not have go beyond the Gate yet, it will come – everything comes
in its time.
But feel the promise of it now: the beauty of the Light there; the
delight, joy and comfort of being there. Feel the serenity of life there
and rejoice, because this road you are traveling on now – the one that
feels like a dark night which boosts your fear – leads there!
Keep that perspective before your eyes, and your path becomes easier.
I hold you by the hand; feel my presence. Every time a Gate opens, it
makes us happy and we feel more deeply united with you all. We are all
connected to each other, and every step each individual takes, carries
something of all of us to the Whole.
Mary Magdalene
© Pamela Kribbe 2012
www.jeshua.net
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